Thursday, December 17, 2015

This is what I did and learned since the last time...

I am currently living in Bahrain.  I am so thankful to this place for being so awesome as to allow me an opportunity to rediscover my art in many facets.  I have discovered that moving to a new place adds to my art.  I learn many things and it all influences my art.  Now Bahrain will always be in my heart and art.  No matter what I paint or create, I have the influence of this incredibly beautiful hot and sandy place.  I will be moving once again to the U.S.  I will be in California come next summer.  I wonder what I will learn there!  I am evolving as an artist and I have my own gallery in the next room....That is what my husband calls the next room in my home since it is all filled up with paintings and supplies.  I have also been writing poetry and a variety of stories.  I am working on an Anthology but it takes time.  Although an Anthology expressed in paintings as much as words is just as creative, I want to create my life with my art.  I want my art to support my every creation as an entity that is its own source or creativity.  Always adding to itself and growing.  Having thought about what I expect from myself as an artist, I wrote the following:

An Artistic mind is Creator of All

Whether you feed it Poetry, Death or Destruction. It just can't help but create according to its creators essence. Do you want to know if something is truly yours? I see myself in all. When it is anger or rage or Life and beauty, I see me. When it is all put together, I see a better version of me. When it is nothing but chaos and nonsense, I see the different and opportunities to set the bar and standard. When what I see, makes me turn my head in sadness and denial at the story I have created, I know I am human. When in ignorance and chance I perceive the internal beauty and essence of a creation in this earth, I am absolutely divine:) Moments like those are so unique and awesome because I know I am not responsible for them. Therefore, they are divinely inspired and gifted and most of all, perfect. It is there where I find my Truth. The Truth of The Divine is rare and not many an artist can have it or touch it. It must find you and choose you. Many feel that the title artist has to be purchased at a price or that there is a cost that has to be paid and the creations are for any and the many. In Truth, every painting, every sculpture, every touch and every movement is an expression of Truth. Every painting and every creation has a twin. I see it as an entanglement of of emotion. A dance between two partners lost in time that have waited through the infinite to find one another. My paintings or creations are only ever meant for one. Behind every painting, there is a story. The story is only known to those that have dreamed it. The dream belongs to the dreamers. Some walk, some run and some create more dreams. The dream can belong to an individual, a people, a gender, a race, an origin, a genesis, a creed, a place, but never to all. Why not all? The truth is that we are all special and unique. That uniqueness has to be celebrated and recognized by excellence. This is my way. As a woman, I have found that sometimes I want to purchase an incredibly beautiful thing like jewelry. I don't have the means so I tell myself that I will be back and if it is meant for me, it will be there waiting for me when I am ready. Not when the seller is ready but when I am ready and I can afford it. In truth, by the time I can afford it, it is almost like having it for free. It doesn't cost me a thing. I hated that feeling of "I have to buy it now before someone else can beat me to it." or "I'll just hide it here in the back so no one else can see it but I know where I put it". As an Artist, I want my expressions to have meaning, deep meaning. I wanted a story and as a result I have many. I want success without competition. In truth, I have figured out that all artists out there have no competition at all. We are all different and unique. We don't compete with one another at all. People either like or don't like that which we bring into the world. But that statement is in and of itself deceitful because sooner or later, we do meet just the right individual that not only likes or loves that particular painting but irrevocably falls in love with it. Only Ever For One. That is the underlying theme for everyone of my paintings.

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